How Could You Leave Us歌詞

How Could You Leave Us - NF
Written by：Tommee Profitt/Nate Feuerstein
How could you leave so unexpected
We waited we waited
For you but you just left us
We needed you I needed you
Yo I don't know what it's like to be addicted to pills
But I do know what it's like to be a witness it kills
Mama told me she loved me I'm thinkin' this isn't real
I think of you when I get a whiff of that cigarette smell yeah
Welcome to the bottom of hell
They say pain is a prison let me out of my cell
You say you proud of me but you don't know me that well
Sit in my room tears running down my face and I yell
Into my pillowcases you say you coming to get us
Then call' em a minute later just to tell us you not I'm humiliated
I'm in a room with a parent that I don't barely know
Some lady in the corner watching us while she's taking notes
I don't get it mom don't you want to watch your babies grow
I guess pills are more important all you have to say is no
But you won't do it will you
You gon' keep popping 'til those pills kill you
I know you're gone but I can still feel you
Why would you leave us why would you leave us here
How could you leave us here
How could you leave us why would you leave us oh
Hey
I got this picture in my room and it kills me
But I don't need a picture of my mom I need the real thing
Now a relationship is something we won't ever have
Why do I feel like I lost something that I never had
You should have been there when I graduated
Told me you loved me and congratulations instead you left us at the window waiting
Where you at mom
We're too young to understand where you at huh
Yeah I know them drugs have got you held captive
I can see it in your eyes they got your mind captured
Some say it's fun to get the high but I am not laughing
And what you don't realize and what you not graspin'
That I was nothing but a kid who couldn't understand it
I ain't gon' say that I forgive you' cause it hasn't happened
I thought that maybe I'd feel better as time passes
If you really cared for me then where you at then
Why would you leave us why would you leave us here
How could you leave us here
How could you leave us why would you leave us oh
Hey
Our last conversation you and I sat in the living room
Talking 'bout my music and I brought you some to listen to
You started cryin' telling me this isn't you
A couple weeks later guess you were singing' a different tune
You took them pills for the last time didn't you
They took you from us once I guess they came back to finish you
Cryin' my eyes out in the studio is difficult
Music is the only place that I can go to speak to you
It took everything inside of me not to scream at your funeral
Sittin' in my chair that person talking was pitiful
I wish you were here mama but every time I picture you
All I feel is pain I hate the way I remember you
They found you on the floor I could tell you felt hollow
Gave everything you had plus your life to them pill bottles
You gave everything you had plus your life to them pill bottles
Don't know if you hear me or not but if you're still watching ma
Why would you leave us why would you leave us here
How could you leave us here
How could you leave us why would you leave us oh
Hey
Sometimes I think about like
Sometimes I think about things like you know
When I'd have kids I'm like
You won't be there you know
You won't be there for any of that
And I'll never get to see you again
Sometimes I wish I would've just called you
I wish I would have just picked up the phone
Wish you were here
I mean you should of been there for us
You should have been here
Them pills got you right
Them pills got you right
I wish you were here