Hopeless Boy歌詞

Yo **** rapping & bragging about the way you ballin'
Spray cans in my backpack and I was starvin'
In middle school with a trey five-seven revolver
My family said I wouldn't make it, now i'm grindin' hard
I dedicated this to the kids growin' up with no father
Believe me I know what you goin' through I almost lost it
Ever seen a teenage boy whose feelin' like robbin'?
That was me at 14, I was driving through compton
On my way to inglewood I was thinkin' of nonsense
Somebody tagging on the wall so I had to go cross it
********** I had guns in my mother's closet
The day she caught me, tear drops started falling
Then she slapped me in the face
Looking brokenhearted
How the **** do I explain that my hood is stronger
Enemies is lookin' for me 2 in the morning
It's been about the 2 weeks and she still ignores me
I'm ******* up so much as hate, that is building towards me
She's on the phone with my fam saying I'm disappointing
Saying I'm disappointing
Oh man, I'm a disappointment
As I sit all alone with pain
I wonder - will I ever see my mother smile?
I wonder - will I ever see my mother smile?
Am I ever gonna see that day
We stop strugglin'
Will I ever see my mother smile?
Strugglin', yea..
Yo, would you like to know why I was so troublesome?
That eviction notice on my door ,ade me hustle drugs
I seen my mother crying
1999
My father left us behind
My feelings empty inside
I try to not miss 'em
Me & my older sister
Carina please tell 'em bout that ****** up christmas
I had to go to school lying to my friends
Pretending I was happy bout some **** I didn't get
Fake smiles through the whole winter
I was cold wearing old clothes and socks with holes in 'em
Gang members I was close with 'em
I was just a kid
They was asking me to do some coke with 'em
I was broke, man I rather sell some **** with 'em
Road trips to the border to go get 'em
Young & hopeless
Trying to get in to show biz
Hoping they would give me a chance
Nobody noticed
As I sit all alone with pain
I wonder - will I ever see my mother smile?
I wonder - will I ever see my mother smile?
Am I ever gonna see that day
We stop strugglin'
Will I ever see my mother smile?
Strugglin', yea..
Oh man, you know what really trips me out is that uh..
People really think I owe them somethin'
You know I hear people talkin' all the time
But its like they don't know the struggle and the **** we gotta go through to get to where we are right now (but I don't owe them a damn thing)
I had to sacrifice so much time, you know
Had to put my family trough so much pain
It's like everything that I got right now, I owe it to the family
Finally my mother can smile now
Oh yeah