Eulogy歌詞

作曲 : Aristos Petrou/Scott Arceneaux Jr.
When I, when I, when I, when I (You did good, $lick)
When I die, **** it, I wanna go to hell
When I, when I, when I, when I
When I die, **** it, I wanna go to hell
When I, when I, when I, when I, when I
Three AM, drinkin' with this pistol on my lap, uh
Six medications, guess there ain't no fixin' that
It's the broken mother****er, [?] 'til I relapse
If I die they might cry 'til they inherit my stacks
Cold ****in' world, tell me what's the word
Only time I speak my heart is when the message come out slurred
People pleasin', always eager to fix a mother****er's problems
Leave me at the bottom, all comfortable with Gomorrah Sodom
I chew on fent and rot my teeth off
Moments of peace and slow heart beats got offered
God I dissed, you gon' save me?
All I can do is laugh and say "C'est la vie"
Woah, was me, I know you get the picture
This type of pain will earn you seven figures
Check my DNA, my RNA come with predictors
This shit is scripture and for what I got there's no elixirs
Feel like I'm not enough
Find myself playin' my dad like Honey Boy and Shia LaBeouf
My momma cryin' as she watch the clock
Text my bro, I love him even though he got my number blocked
I would give up everythin' to see my brothers clean
No second thoughts, it's **** the cost or take me, leave 'em be
Take my money say you love me even if it's lies
That connection so depressin' but it's all I got
When I die just play this ****ing song
I was never meant for this, been tortured just to carry on
Couple coupes, lotta zeros and a couple homes, none of it is shit for me
Cock the pistol and now I'm-
Head in the clouds, it look like it might rain again
Always holdin' back tears, it's how I manage to pay the rent
Pay the bills, place the bets so I don't have to chase the check
Verified through suicide, the glitz and glamour came and went
Wash my ****in' soul, there's still that one stain is kept
I just wanna be loved, the root of all my pain
Except the type that comes with age and death
I can finally lay and rest, I'm moved the lil' peace
And I'm ready to erase the debt (I, I, I, I)
I never planned on showin' the world the face that hides behind the mask
I always thought the last thing I would hear would be the guns blast
Fill in the black hole in my chest with sex and drugs, but it never lasts, it never lasts
Shit, two years ago Big Pharma should have just cashed me out
Now I got a deviated septum I'ma just wrap me out
Pat me down, ask me how I'm still depressed
All they see is me sad, all they see is lack of death
All they see is what they wanna see
Callin' me a wannabe, I don't wanna be in misery except a pharmacy
Killed that girl I wanna see, I wanna see her heart bleed
When she rips out my ****ing heart and to the pharmacy
I'm a prideful person and take pride in my verses
**** your whole opinion I don't care if it worsens
I'll ruin my reputation and make sure it's on purpose
**** this shit
When I die just play this ****ing song
I was never meant for this, been tortured just to carry on
Couple coupes, lotta zeros and a couple homes, none of it is shit for me
Cock the pistol and now I'm-
When I, when I, when I, when I
When I die, **** it, I wanna go to hell
When I, when I, when I, when I
When I die, **** it, I wanna go to hell